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Sunday 18 December 2011

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! AND A BRILLIANT NEW YEAR!!!

Dearest Alex,

It is all over.  I'm still sick.  I did some sketching yesterday morning, but that's about it.  Now, that my gift-vacation is about to commence, I need the remaining few days to get ready for CUBA!  Hopefully, this stupid flu will be over before I fly away.

So, that's it for art until New Year!

I do intend to bring my sketchbook and watercolours, but in the past I hardly got any sketching done.  Who want's to sketch when you can swim in the glorious Pacific Ocean?

Please, PLEASE,  Nature let us have warm days!

Wishing you Happy Holidays and a Brilliant New Year!!!

Love

M

P.S. Free 2012 calendar!  Resurrected from 2008.

Wednesday 14 December 2011

My Greatest Weakness

Dearest Alex,

I'm sick again!  This makes it the 8th time this year.  Today is the first day I actually managed to sit on a chair without feeling dizzy.

Obviously my work is postponed, till I can sit for at leas an hour or two.

I'm having trouble designing the king's robes, but on the plus side I think I've figured out another two-page spread for "AIMH".  It is not the lizards, but at leas it's something.  I hope tomorrow I'll be strong enough to sit and draw.

Hate being sick.  Hate that I catch everything that goes around.  Hate that I'm always sicker than the people around me.  My sister can function with a cold and is well after two days.   I cannot even sit up for two days, and the fever is not even that high 37.6 or so.

Think I'll go back to bed.

M

Sunday 11 December 2011

What to do...?

Dearest Alex,

I've been trying to figure out the composition for my next illustration, and I have hit the proverbial wall.  It's as if all my creativity and energy went into the owls, and now I have no idea what I can do with lizards.  All I know is that I want to have a penny present to show the relative size of the tiny lizards, and I want my penny to be Canadian.  Why Canadian?  Because a. I'm Canadian and b. Canadian penny has maple leaves on the back, which = nature (I hope to have my book raise funds for endangered animals and support nature conservation.).

I also know that I will need to draw 10 lizards.  Some of them will have to be babies, others grown up.  I know what territory they can be found in, I know their diet, etc.  What I do not know is how to present all those elements together, so that my readers will say "WOW!", or at least "That's neat.".

So, what do I do?

Well, there is another project I'm interested in, and while my brain is cooking up a scheme regarding lizard design (I always go through this thinking process, before I begin thumbnails--it saves paper, which in turn saves trees), I'll explore that project.

I have recently listened to a romance novel that has a short story embedded in that novel.  The novel was a bit too advanced for my taste, but I absolutely love the short story.  I have not encountered such a lovely short story since "Lady of Shalott" by Tennyson.  I think it will be a brilliant picture book, or graphic novel, but I need to convince the author and get her permission.

Shortly after I finish this entry, I intend to continue sketching ideas, and hopefully, I can come up with two illustration designs by the end of the day.

I think taking a break from "AIMH", will help me figure out what to do with lizards.  It has been a long while since I drew princess and kings, and people in general, that I think I will enjoy the change.  Though I love drawing anything alive, my preference has always run to people.  I love people!  I love their diversity, their complexity, and the tremendous challenge they present to any artist.  People are the most difficult to create, because everyone know what a person should look like--they all see a person every time they look at their reflection, or at the people around them.  For this reason, even though most people are not artists, they can intuitively detect mistakes in realistic portraits and figure-drawing.

An artist must take this perception further, by enlisting an emotional response from the viewer.  An artist does not copy what they see, they absorb what they see, and project an inner reflection of their subject spiced with pieces of their own soul onto the the surface they choose to work with.  If they fail to do this, they may still create a pretty piece of artwork, but will never achieve the level of greatness that will make that artwork memorable.

So, the struggle continues, "the agony and the ecstasy".

Always.

M


Wednesday 7 December 2011

Anatomy of "AIMH" Illustration


Dearest Alex,

The struggle has been long, the battle waged and won: victory is in my grasp!  The Spotted Owl has landed and marked its place in the pages of "AIMH".  Finally!

Two weeks (from the moment of research to this day), but the two page-spread is finally, finally, FINALLY done!  Ahhhhhhhhh, it feels good.  If I was not getting over a cold, I might jump up and dance a jig--maybe I'll dance a jig anyway (if I can figure out what exactly is "a jig").   

However, more to the point:

As I was drawing, I remembered how often friends, family, strangers (mostly non-artistic types), asked me how I do what I do.  Art to non-artistic types seems like magic; there is a curiosity that thirsts for knowledge, explanations, the naked need to "see behind the curtain".  So, I said to myself: "Why not?"  Why not show everyone exactly how I create what I create.  There really is nothing to hide.  Now, be aware that every project requires its own approach.  Approaching an illustration is different from approaching a painting.  There is even a difference between approaching one style of illustration and another.  Since I do not have examples of every work I have ever done, what this blog will show, as the title states is the "Anatomy of "AIMH" Illustration"--the way I illustrate my first ever picture book--which may also answer the question: "Why it's taking [me] so long [to get it done]?!"

Step 1:  The Idea

It doesn't matter what you wish to create, any creative process begins with an idea.  Ideas can come from anywhere.  I get my ideas when I sleep (that is why I keep a notebook next to my bed to jot down clips of dreams, before they vanish upon fully waking), when I'm watching television, reading a book, taking a walk or a shower...  It comes from the ether, netherworld, Neverland, Whateverland...  Once I would have said it may even be whispered to me by the Muses, but after recent researching of Greek Mythology I have discovered to my shock that even though Muses are goddesses of the arts, not one of them is a patron of visual art.  It’s true—look it up.

The idea for “AIMH” came to me sometime in 2008 from a common, Serbian saying disparaging one’s messy, shaggy hair.  I think it was my mother who looked at me and said: “Vreme je da ošišaš tu šumu sa glave.”  (“It’s time to cut that forest on your head.”)  An image of a forest growing on my head intruded upon my thoughts, and that crazy little artist in me asked: “What if…?” 

That’s how it all began.  An idea is a fluid thing; it changes, it grows, it sometimes dies...  This idea did not die.  It did not come to me at a convenient time, because in 2008 I was working on someone else’s books, as well as finishing the last few assignments for Art Instruction Schools.  However, that little idea would not leave me alone, and in my spare time I wrote down the poem.  When my grandfather died, and I stayed in Serbia to console my grandmother, I sketched out the entire book (it kept me from losing my mind in grief).

Step 2: The Concept

The Concept in this case is the idea written and sketched out, a visual representation of the entire picture book.  These sketches were very rough, because I did not know the exact appearance of my characters, nor of the animals I would use.   At that time they were more or less blobs floating around in my mind and as I drew I drew upon my memories of the images I saw.  Unfortunately, I do not have a photographic memory, so those images were rather hideous. 

Step 3: The Poem

I wrote out the text for my picture book.  Even though it is not exactly a poem, I keep calling it a poem because it is written in verse.   After many, many rewritings, I have a version I’m 85% thrilled with.  I still think I may make some improvements to the text and the flow, but it works pretty well as is.  Since the rough ideas for images are established and I do not see them changing, I began to illustrate.

Step 4: Illustration

And here we are.  How do I illustrate?

1.       The Concept Sketch
As I have already mentioned, I’ve created the entire picture book mock-up (The Concept), so I have a sketch to begin from.

Bellow, you can see this sketch.



However, this sketch is very crude, so--

2.       Research
I went on the Internet, downloaded a bunch of pictures, and read several texts on Spotted Owls.

3.       Thumbnails
I got this image in my head,  very different form the rest of the pages in my book; but since this is my book (I’m the editor, publisher and art director), I decided a change may be exciting.  An unexpected visual disturbance may jolt my readers, hopefully pulling them away from the hypnotic draw of similarity.



4.       Roughs
Once I chose a thumbnail I liked, I redrew it on the regular 8.5’’ x 11’’ paper, trying to keep true to the ratio of my book.   I did several roughs, and bellow you can see two of them.




I added more detail to the rough and scanned it into my computer.

Using Photoshop I sized the drawing to fit my 14’’ x 17’’ layout drawing pad.

Then I traced the images on my “light-table” (every animator has one, maybe next time I’ll remember to take a photo so you can see my tiny setup), redrawing as I traced with a purple col-erase pencil (the difference between col-erase pencils and regular pencil crayons is that they can easily be erased).

When I was satisfied with my drawing, I drew over it with a blue ink pen, again making changes and adding detail.



Problem: How many talons does the spotted owl have?
I could not tell from the pictures.  Sometimes I think there are five, sometimes four…

Solution: When in doubt go with design.  This is not a book about owls, so in the end I choose 4, because it just looks better.  (Even though I drew five on the cover J.)

Then I scanned in that final drawing.

In Photoshop I manipulated the images, cutting and pasting nearly every owl until I was satisfied with my composition.   I added text, sized the drawing yet again to fit two 11’’ by 14’’ rag drawing papers I’m using as my final medium paper, and printed them.



Since, I do not have a desk-size light-table and my maximum drawing size is 11’’ by 14’’, I sometimes have to split my art into sections.  In this case, I split it right down the middle (where the seam would be).

I redrew each of the two sections on the layout paper again and this time spent more time and effort cleaning up, because this layout drawing is the drawing I will use to trace the final image onto my rag paper page.

                                    (I have no idea where the second half went.)

I do this (preferably when it’s dark outside—no trouble there, considering that I have not seen the sun more than once or twice this past week) with a crow-quill nib and acrylic waterproof sepia ink.

Once my drawing is done, I let it dry overnight—just to be safe.

The next day, I attached my pages (using the deep green painting tape) to a wooden board.  This keeps the pages from wrinkling as I work.  (Note: with watercolour paper, you may need to “stretch” the paper, but this paper is thin enough that simple taping works.)  I choose my brushes, I filled up two containers of water (one for dirty water, the other for dipping the brush cleaned in dirty water into clean water, before choosing another colour), plastic dishes (these allow me to get very clean washes, because the pigment settles on the bottom of the dish, and I paint with coloured water left on top), paper towel and watercolours (Yarka watercolour cakes in this case).

5.       Painting
I paint.  I paint in washes, layered one on top of another, to keep my image from going muddy.  It is very important to let the paper dry in between, because if you go over a colour that is not completely dry it will “bleed”—creating more mud.

I decided to paint the background first, because I wanted the owls to get somewhat lost in it, and in general, it is always better to paint the background first, because painting around deeply saturated characters is a nightmare, and painting together with characters may result in unwanted “bleeding”.



Sometimes I would choose my colours by painting my final image digitally in Photoshop before repainting it with watercolours.  This way chances of errors in tone and hues are almost non-existent.  However, I’m running out of time for this project, so I skipped this step.

It took days (maybe a week, can’t remember the day I started though it is here in the blog) to paint this, because I had to allow colours to dry completely from time to time.  Getting darker tones by doing washes takes forever, but the plus side is you get a very tree-dimensional image.  It looks even more three-dimensional in real life.

I also painted using very small brushes (mostly #4 round), because I found that large brushes absorbed too much water and paint, and therefore were not good for precise work such as leaves, texture on the tree, feathers, etc.








6.       Redrawing
During painting the drawing details would get lost, so when I was done, I redrew the owls and parts of trees with the sepia ink again.



7.       Highlights
Most of the time, I add highlights to the eyes using a small brush and white ink.  Once that is done, I leave the work to dry overnight.



8.       Final Scan
The next day (in this case today), I scanned the paintings and opened them in Photoshop.  I proceeded to attach the paintings together.  Despite my best efforts to create a seamless edge, I inevitably have to use the cloning tool to eliminate the joining line and add or erase bits of the painting to create a seamless effect.

Finally, I sized the drawing to a proper ratio and adjusted the text.




So, that is it.  The image is ready for printing.  I may have to adjust printing tone and the image depending on the printer, but I consider this done.  Now, it’s time to move on to the next two pages.

Write to you later!

M

Thursday 1 December 2011

Working Away

Dearest Alex,

I have not been writing recently, because there really was nothing much to write about.  For the past several days I have been working on my owls--I'm still working on my owls.  The background is detailed, and since I do plan to post my entire painting effort in the near future, you will see why.  It doesn't help that my chosen medium is watercolour.  One has to be very patient with watercolour, because if one does not wait for watercolour to dry properly, all one gets for her trouble is a mucky mess and a headache.  That's not to say that I am not hopeful I'll be able to fix that mess.

I do believe that is also the charm of watercolour--the mistakes.  With so much of the art going digital, there is that bit of humanity lost in an artist's work.  Mistakes could be a pain, but they can also be beautiful.

I also have no idea the number of talons on an spotted owl.  None of the photographs I use as reference give me a clear indication, and I cannot seem to find a book on drawing birds (at least not a particularly good book).  Maybe there is an answer to it on the species report, but after thinking about it, I decided that since my book is not a nature book about owls, a mistake here and there may not be so bad.  It will cause some of my readers to feel superior compared to a poor misguided artist like myself.  So, I decided to go for the design instead and choose 4 talons in the end (though there are probably five--I have five talons on my main page).  For some reason, 4 just looks better.  I'm even thinking of making a game out of my mistakes.  Once my book is published, I will post the mistakes I know about on my website, and if a reader finds one on their own, I'll send them a rough sketch from my work (Nature knows I have more than enough of those to go around).

Besides painting owls, I have also updated my webpage and have finally posted my first ever "Horsing Around" Donation Report.  Only $10 CAN earned for Sick Kids.  I do hope the word about my lovely project spreads soon.  I have received more notes from people who are interested, but there is no point in posting anything until I receive payment along with that interest.

I've finished reading "Drawn to Life" by Walt Stanchfield and have written a review on Amazon.ca, titled: "Fantastic!"

Will write again soon!

Always,

M

Sunday 27 November 2011

Busy Bee

Dearest Alex,

Not much to write.  I've been flitting around, doing this and doing that, some art, but mostly socializing.  Got some orders for "Horsing Around" (of course when I needed the printer it decided to die, but the problem is fixed, so all is good).

Owls are coming along nicely, but I still need to do some studying.

Will write again soon!

M

Thursday 24 November 2011

Death To Creative Process

Dearest Alex,

Today has been one of those days...

Usually on weekdays I'm alone all day and can work in peace; well, do to certain circumstances that are too private to mention here (but I'm sure you being all-knowing know all about them anyway), a person I love dearly was with me today and she needed help.

It was nothing major, but still it was an interruption, then another interruption, then another...  This is death to creative process.  I can handle interruptions no problems when I'm cleaning-up, or painting, etc.  However, when I am looking at a blank piece of paper, surrounded by bunch of reference photos, having to invent an entire scene out of my head (using those photos, but not copying them)--I NEED PEACE and I NEED QUIET--ABSOLUTE DEAD SILENCE.

Instead what I got was phones ringing, feet shuffling here and there, interruptions, interruptions, interruptions...

Why is it that non-artists can't seem to understand that drawing is work?  Just because I work from home, dressed in my comfortable clothes, does not mean that I'm not "at work".  If I worked in an office, no one would ever dream of interrupting me while I was working.  During a break, sure, fine, but not while I was working!

So, all you non-artists out there, when an artist is drawing, or even when an artist is not drawing but has that blank look on their face (this means they are in another world and you should not try to call them back), DO NOT interrupt.  Do not say hi, do not make your presence known, do not even step into their line of vision.

There I was, trying to figure out owl anatomy, tracing the scapula connection to the wing bone, wondering what the structure is under all those feathers when I hear: "Oh, Mili, can you come here for a second.  I need your help ("HOLD ON" I yell, trying to place that line just right.) with this computer.  Why is it not working?  Do you know ("I SAID: HOLD ON!"  Now if this is the chest area, and the head connects like...) what to do?  It's the computer, there is something wrong.  Why is (Ah, forget it.  "I'M COMING!!!")...

Despite interruptions, I somehow managed to rough out my owls, but by the time I did that it was lunchtime.
                                          (my "good" rough sketch of the owls: sketch # 5
                                            I roughed out the drawing in col-erase pencil,
                                            then I added details with a pen.  I scanned the purple-
                                            blue rough and turned it Grayscale, then I sized it
                                            to 11 x 16--to fit my layout paper)

After lunch, I had to go out.  I got some fresh air, which is always a bonus for an artist.  However, by the time I got back it was 4 pm.  By the time I had a snack and removed makeup from my face: 5 pm.

I'm one of those rare morning people.  This means that as soon as the sun goes down my brain becomes foggy and I'm pretty much useless.  After 5 pm all I can do is "monkey" work--work not requiring much effort--work a "monkey" can do.  That's what I did.  I took my "good" rough sketch and scanned and sized it, so that tomorrow when my mind is clear and creative juices are flowing again I can develop it into a good rough drawing.

Now, I think I'll go dance and do some bike riding to at least make an attempt at keeping fit, before turning in early.

Later!

M



Wednesday 23 November 2011

I Created A Blog!

Dearest Alex,

I have just spent most of my morning creating a blog.

"Why?" You ask.

Promotion.  A way to force myself to stay on track and keep to my ever shifting deadlines.  A way to share what I'm learning, as I'm learning.  A way to vent my struggles...

There is something quite comforting about a blog.  Even though no one may ever read a single post, as I'm writing this I feel connected to you, to the Universe, to my possible readers--or do they call them followers here?

They say it is easy to create a blog, and I suppose it is true, but I have just spent hours going through various templates and learning about features, hours that I could have spent working on my book.  Finally, I chose one of the travel templates, even though technically this is not a travel blog (though I suppose any blog is a journey).  I'm fairly happy with the result.

To keep true to the purpose of this blog, I need to inform you of the progress regarding my "live" projects.

WofV--The Fantasy Novel
After its 11th revision, it is currently being edited by friends.  I hope they will send me the edits soon, so that I can start searching for a literary agent.  I think the novel is brilliant, though I'm sure there are grammatical errors, and spelling mistakes--after all, English is not my first language.  By moving to Canada, I have managed to miss out on most grammar instruction, and all I know about grammar is what I have absorbed by reading.  I have struggled to no end to create a quire letter that will showcase the brilliance of my very complex novel in a page.  I think I have succeeded, and I may post that letter here in the future.

"Horsing Around" Collectible Limited Edition Print Series
The series is ready for sale.   However, most people seem frightened to purchase the images over the Internet through PayPal.   I have made several sales to friends and friends of friends, but so far no one has purchased anything through my site.  I need to up my advertising somehow, as well as establish the print sale in a physical location.  I'm afraid Christmas Season will be a bust, but hopefully I can come up with a plan by Easter.

AIMH--The Picture Book

"...Fighting with tangles,
fighting with curls,
the poor barber yanked,
the poor barber pulled,
until with one last effort
(and to the wonder of us all)
(I'm including only half of the 2-page spread to protect my artwork.)

After two years, yesterday I have finally finished the two-page spread illustrating the above.  I must have done a hundred sketches, but no matter what I did, the bear did no seem big enough!

The solution: loose the background.  As soon as I removed the background and just left the characters, the bear looked much bigger.

Now, I'm moving on to spotted owls and pygmy short-horned lizards.  Yesterday, my printer refused to print reference photos I found on Google, so I hope I have better luck today.  I also hope I have the time to at leas sketch in a rough plan of the following two-page spreads.

As I was heaving breakfast, I read a bit more of "Drawn to Life: The Walt Stanchfield Lectures: Volume 2" edited by Don Hahn (a book I recommend to any artist out there) and I just have to share some words of wisdom:

"When you don't have a model to draw from, you have to visualize the pose or action.  Visualization is in cahoots with kinesthetics, for when you visualize you are not using your eyes, but you are using every cell in your body.  It's as if you create a whole 'nother world in your imagination -- one that can be translated to an audience through your drawings.  But even with a model in front of you, the same process has to take place; otherwise it is just copying." (Stanchfield; page 266)

"Gestures are always performed for a reason.  They are not just mere movements of body and limbs in some haphazard way, divorced from inner participation (motive); it is the visible manifestation of man's emotional or intellectual state." (Stanchfield; page 277)

His lectures area absolutely brilliant!  I wish I had this book when I was studying Life-Drawing at Sheridan.
I'm dreadfully busy at the moment, but I hope that in January I may finally find some time to do more Life-Drawing.  I really do miss it.

I guess, that's enough for today.

I'll write again tomorrow.

Always,

M